the very orchid

May 26, 2017.  At the kitchen sink, washing up the breakfast dishes,  I realize there is an orchid inches from my face.  It bloomed!  It’s been ready to pop for weeks, and today was the day.  Morgan!  Thank you.  Hello.

I see her in all things small and delicate.

She was born May 26, 1984 and had 9 months and 3 weeks to be here.  33 years later, Mike and I are sitting on the cabin porch, remembering the Saturday she arrived in our Oakland Avenue upstairs bedroom.  Mike recalls when the midwives told us Morgan had physical markers for Down Syndrome, I was so captivated to have her next to me, it didn’t seem to matter what they were saying.

We look out over the fields, study the clouds, sip our beers.  Then he tells me a story I had not heard before.  The first Father’s Day after Morgan’s death, he was walking the farm. Along the north fence row a deer snorted and stamped, attempting to distract Mike, and sure enough, there in the grasses was a new fawn.

We see her in all things small and delicate.



12 thoughts on “Morgan

  1. cherylcapaldotraylor June 2, 2017 / 1:24 am

    Thank you for sharing this personal and tender story. What a beautiful testament to Love–old and new, small and delicate. All things. ❤️


    • alexandertechnique2016 June 2, 2017 / 2:06 am

      Cheryl—thank you back! I didn’t know if it would end up being published, but when Mike read it, he encouraged me to go ahead—-

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  2. Jo Dee June 2, 2017 / 1:31 am

    I see Morgan in that orchid. I remember her face… And yours. I don’t know if you knew that I have a grandson Andrew, and I often think of your Andrew. Nothing is ever completely gone, the mystery of connection is ….. well, a mystery. Much love.


  3. Stephanie June 2, 2017 / 3:48 am

    Sometimes, often, things are beyond challenging with my son. Then, I read your beautiful post and can only feel deep, deep gratitude for my tumultuous journey with him. Thank you for that.
    Love to you and Mikey.


  4. Amy June 2, 2017 / 9:07 pm

    Hugs and love to you Diana! What a beautiful post to share. ❤️ I miss you!!


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